I’ve been waiting for awhile now. And honestly, I didn’t even know I was waiting. Well, I knew I was waiting, but I didn’t realize how much waiting I was actually doing. I have been waiting to hear God. To speak about where He’s calling me. To tell me what He’s calling me to do. To show me the person I am to marry. I’ve been waiting.
Here’s the thing.
I still don’t have the answer to these concerns of mine. I still don’t know where God is calling me. I still don’t know who I’m going to marry. There is so much in my life that I am worried about. And I have been waiting.
But God has been speaking to me. He told me, “You have been waiting, but not patiently.” I have been utterly frustrated with this answer. Because being patient and waiting are the same thing. Aren’t they?
As I look back, my waiting has been filled with anger, anxiety, fear, hurt. I could go on and on. My waiting has just been waiting. And God has been calling me to patience.
He’s desiring for my waiting to be filled with wonder, faith, trust, dependency, and again, I could go on and on.
My year of Abante is about patiently waiting on God. The unknown is beautiful. It is an opportunity for God to blow my mind and show me how much He loves me. But if I’m simply waiting, I may miss out. God wants to show me all of the concerns of my heart, but he wants me to wait patiently on Him. For my waiting to be filled with leaning into Him. To be filled with leaning into His strength. For me to lean into the fact that He is all powerful and has a plan for me.
This is my year of patiently waiting.